Resolve.

Resolve. I will not wear my heart on my sleeve.

Resolve. I will not fight for you.

Resolve. I am waiting on you this time.

Resolve. I will be honest to you.

Resolve. I will allow change.

Theme Song.

Lifehouse seemed to perfectly capture it for me, and much more poetically than I could have produced.

How long have I been in this storm?
So overwhelmed by the oceans shapeless form
Water's getting harder to tread
With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I could see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown
So why am I ten feet under and upside down
Barely surviving has become my purpose
Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you
Everything would be all right
If I could see you
This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water
And you will catch me if I fall
And I will get lost into your eyes
And everything will be all right
And everything will be all right

Lifehouse - Storm Lyrics

The Christian's Check List.

Come to the father, you who work and you'll work no more.

All you who labor in vain, and to the broken and shamed....

Muddle mind.

So I started this post with two lengthy paragraphs about attending church, and the rationalizations we use when we have become spiritually stagnant in a church. BUT, I could not contain my thoughts to this one topic! My brain went crazy, taking rabbit trail after rabbit trail! phew...

Sometimes, thinking through things does more harm than good for me. It's a curse really.

Sometimes, blank is best.