Leap.

What would happen if this thinking stopped, and I took a radical leap of faith into the arms of the faithful one?

Oh, what could happen! What could be done! What walls could be broken and barriers destroyed! In the arms of the Faithful One.

I cannot see what is waiting for me off this mountain top, but I can taste it, I can smell it. I can feel it.

Fear, be gone. You will be blasted away by the rays of Christ's glory.

Go ahead, take a step. It may hurt at first, but He will not let you hit bottom. He can't.

Come back when you're ready.

I am far too easily distracted by you. Like a puppy bouncing about in a new home, but in a much more negative light. Bad sign, newbie. Bad sign.

Inadequacy.

Can there be something made from this mess? I stand here, in the dark, with a whelm of hopelessness taking my breath away.

I have dreams, but they are unattainable.

I have goals, but I am incapable.

I have desires, but pride awfully taints their potential.

What am I good at? Where are my gifts? What am I here for? I seem to be coming up blank, and it is gnawing at my composure.

Please, meet me here. I do not know what to do. I will not run to others to get find assurance. I need you now, will you be here?

Pause.I turned to the word because I do not know where else to go, and His word grants this peace.

2 Corinthians 12:9 "My grace is sufficient for you. My power is made perfect when you are weak."


2 Timothy 1:9 "...Who has called us and called us with a Holy calling, NOT according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace which was granted us in Jesus Christ from all eternity."

Conclusion. I am desperately weak. He is able. I must learn to believe this.